Jaded.

February 12th.

"Lonely boy" has come to a conclusion. It's time for a reality check.
There's a reason he's chosen five years of hardcore studies.
There is a reason he's chosen thick books over thick piles of mails.
"Lonely boy" won't lay down his guard. Ever.
The dream is still alive. He's doing it. This fall. Nothing will be the same. Different environments. Different people. With the same mind.
The road is long and not at all straight.
No, in fact it's full of bumps and fences.
But "Lonely boy" knows the deal. He is doing it!
Even if it might cost him more than he can afford...

G, "Lonely boy" ' s sidekick this semester has not been seen in school for a while now. Can she be the reason for "Lonely boy" getting up on his feet? Devoting him into studying? Perhaps. But only perhaps. He needs to think on his own. Otherwise there will be no "Lonely boy" on the other side of the Atlantic ocean this fall. It's up to him. And no one else.

Why so serious? About everything. Isn't life suppose to be fun?
Carpe Diem and all that?
Of course! And it is! "Lonely boy" just need to reconsider.
His lifestyle, or his future...
His lifestyle tend to bring out the Charlie Harper in him.
As seen on Theodora.
There's something about the other sex.
"Physical attraction" and all that.
The combination of alcoholic beverages and attractive ladies surrounding him is turning him into Upper East Side's very own Chuck Bass.
But only due to the fact that they have the same mind.
Or at least the same urges and needs.
But what is reality and what is fiction?
It's time to realize the differences before it's too late.
Damages have been done.
Avoiding another is the next matter.
At least if you ask "Lonely boy" himself...
Life is like a dice. The best thing you can get is... or is it?
"Lonely boy" knows that the dice isn't the answer.
It's time to put mind into action.
Otherwise "Lonely boy" will end up as a male version of "Alice in Wonderland".
Only this time, "Wonderland" will be "Blunderland".

Until then, you know you love me.

XOXO, Gossip Boy.

Ending notes: Valentine's, "Schmalentine's". Future vs love. Decisions, regrets. Valentine's, "Schmalentine's". Who gives a rats ass about it?

Tune of the day: New York I love you, but you're bringing me down - LCD Soundsystem